i think every now and then when i see my own blog... i feel sad... so not updated... haha.. who's to blame?? hmmmm.... i wonder who... well this month has been somehow work work work... after work will either be go out for dinner or go home... and somehow i've learnt that going home is a lot better than going out for dinner sometimes... well since i have written anything in a long time, i guess i probably mus update myself.. especially if i wanna read my own blog next time... lets say 10 years down the road?? yah right...

i'm currently working... back in SNEF... i'm doing the same stuff as my internship program, jus under another supervisor... i used to be under Sashi but now he's back in india... so another china dude, Johnny gives me stuff to do... i somehow like to assume that johnny thinks i am 16 and that i have no idea how to do any sort of coding... he likes asking me to read codes.. but to denyse READING CODES == DO MY OWN THING.. its really nice workin under him... get to learn stuff like the proper way of coding... get to use microsoft websphere... its really cool coz all the errors will pop out and they will tell us which line the error is at so its a whole lot easier... i started off with 4000++ errors... but it was all becoz of the nice software that i use... and that would be about work... my work place.. the environment has jus gotten a whole lot better from the previous time i was here.. i get to know more ppl here, all through the help of joyce.. some of the ppl actually new me as the girl that smiled to them.. i heard that somewhere.. on the first few days of work, i used to complain day and night that i wanna go home becoz i didn't know anyone here and that eating alone sux... after the first couple of days i found it seriously pathetic... workin in a company with at least 50ppl and that i eat alone for lunch... nice enough, one day, the 'receptionist' asked me out for lunch.. from then on i started making new friends here.. that's all i have to say about work...

stuff i do after work in july have been the most enjoyable times in july... no joke... i look forward to 530 everyday.. this month alone there has been 5 ppl's bday... thank god i only celebrated 2 of them.. if not bankrupt ah... rekha's bday was the most fun.. mainly becoz i sorta like going drinking with friends... not heavy drinkin but jus light alcoholic drinks... sit down, talk cock a couple of minutes which turns to hours... so its very relaxing i must say.. and especially when your with a whole bunch of close friends... jus makes it feel even more cozy.. for farhana's bday celebration was a last minute thing.. coz we didn't actually know she's coming..

i seem to feel like a psyco... i've jus finish sharpening all the pencil on my desk... sounds freaky... there aren't 2 or 3 pencils around my desk.. probably like 15... really bored... i guess it annoys everyone about the sharpening sound but i am bored to the extent that I DON'T CARE!!! besides, i have officially ask bobby whether there's anything for me to do.. he said not much for now @ go find thing to do... so yipee.... the weird thing is, when i start to do my work seriously, my phone starts to ring.. this happened all day.. weird... and when i am bored, like NOW, no one calls me... sad to say...

anyways, on saturday my cousins came back home... yeah... so late at night my grandma and mom picked them up from the airport... i didn't go, coz felt really tired... the moment my grandma left the house, i was awake, feeling tired but awake enough to watch tv and chat and stuff... about 11plus, she called, ask me to accompany her to 85 for supper... she called when i was eating my dinner some more... so wasted.. in the end, i understand why she called me.. it was to help her look after my cousins... my gosh... 2 of them... i had to eat and feed them at the same time... they jump and jump and talk and played with the utensils... aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.......... i feed the cousin on my left, then eat my own then feed the cousin on the right then feed left.... macam like cycle like that... then one cousin dun like the minced meat, the other say dun like the ball.. then in the end she say she like... whah kao... i was like telling my grandma... imagine i wanted 4 kids... now taking care of 2 already like very luan... haiz....

yesterday, being Sunday and all.. was the most relaxing day... can say i am a freak or what.. but i got to bring back all my lego.. my cousin was like, "xiao hui jie jie, i want to play lego"... first thing going through my mind was, "xiao".. no offence to them.. but i am very particular about anyone playing with my lego... i know i am going 20 already, but afterall, as the only child, lego were my only toys that can keep me occupied for a long time... i went home to pack my lego properly... pack meaning the psycotic way of keeping... like all the screws put in one packet of the box, all the red color length of 4 stick them together.... very fun... hahaha... another weird part of denyse that nobody knows... muhuahahahhaha....

dunno how so many things can happen in jus 1 week... this week alone was a hectic one... my dad came on sunday and left on tues.. its quite sad how fast he has to leave... but anyways, i start work on tues... after work, i went home.. at least that's what i think i did.. work is all i do these days... everyday... even today is a working day... for cryin out loud its a saturday... denyse, this kind of tai tai needs sleep at home...

so on thursday, i was supposed to meet up with shaun, but then he had something on... coincidentally when i was on my way home, shuhui called, ask whether wannna go for dinner at cafe cartel and coffee at starbucks(do all this at siglap)... so met up with her and ian.. as usual.. talk about stuff about our lives... heehee...

then yesterday, friday, work again.. thought i could have dinner with rekha they all since she jus came back, but QUEEN REKHA wanted to go clubbing so no dinner... then i thought i could go eat with siaoli and pat, which turned out to be for lunch only... changed the time to today.. oooo.......so today we're meeting at subway...

yesterday morning, my stepmom asked me whether i would like to join them for dinner becoz it was my dad's friend's birthday.. we ate at jumbo at East coast park.. i sat with my brother, Bryan and my friend, Brian. whah... headache... left brian right bryan.. during dinner, aunty shirley, brian's mom asked why i didn't choose US. then i told her, coz my father would visit me if i studied in Australia... and come to think of it, i dunno when he will ever be free to do that... *go toilet*... i jus went out to make a phone call to my dad and ask.. if i choose to go US, is it ok.. he said ok.. but somehow he was very reluctant to say that.. now i really wonder what to do.. if ppl, your reading this, Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllppppppp...........